Christmas bound!

Merry Christmas!

Had a wonderful two days with my family! Love you so much :)

I felt a little homesick at this time of year but last year. I missed my family and friends and especially the actual feeling of being loved unconditionally and being at home. Why did i though? I knew then and I know now that my host family loves me and takes care of me if needed. I felt like at home, all the time. Not every day of course, but most and more that most of the time. Now I feel homesick again. I miss them! I miss my second home, my friends, my school, my room, my bathroom, my window view even! (black crickets and dead leaves) now I'm just kidding, that ain't what was there :D

Anyways, I hope  everyone is having a wonderful Christmas, despite of the homesickness or other sad incidents which I e.g. have too many in my mind this year.

Let it snow let it snow let it snow

It is not really snowing but our winter looks pretty nevertheless. We got out of school today and I am already bored. I can't think of anything I would hate more than being bored :D Well I gotta work almost the entire vacation whether it is school work or my job I have to go.

While driving home from school I spent some time thinking. It feels like there is no real purpose or meaning in my life. I don't mean to sound disturbed or anything. I am not going to do anything to myself, god this is nothing like that :D Not depressed (badly anyway) I'm pretty happy I think. I just feel like there is something important missing in my life, don't know what it is or anything but it feels like a little hole. Maybe it is the reason why I get bored so easily. I probably just need another hobby :D

This is how my life goes now: School, work, school, gym, school and work. Just a little bit with friends and maybe a little bit too much with family. Kinda can't wait for high school to be over and starting fresh. Bittersweet thou. I've found so many wonderful people this year and I am beyond grateful about them. But I need new wind to blow my hair crazy.  :D